My family returned to the house yesterday, and today I was surprised by the enormity of the rage and resentment I feel towards them. They hired a cleaning service, and the cleaner emptied the mopping water in the utility area which is where the dishes are (I like the dishes to be kept and washed in the sink, but my family prefers the dishes out in the utility area). The dishes were on the floor near the drain, and the mopping water was emptied on the floor near the drain.

I was telling my grandma that either the dishes have to be kept in the sink or the mopping water has to be emptied somewhere else, and it was a whole stretched-out conversation because my grandma talks over people and I was having to say things over and over to get her to listen. In the midst of this my aunt told me to quieten because they were booking tickets, but I wouldn't have to louden in the first place if they didn't loudly talk over people.

The dishes were washed later, but just the fact that water which is 1) dirty and 2) has floor cleaner in it had swilled around them, is enough to make me anxious about eating.

Oh, and my grandpa asked me whether I'm searching for jobs. I said yes just to fob him off. But it started me raging in my head about how if they want me to do a job so bad they should have supported me when I was offered one.

I recently went to an in-person job interview for a gallery assistant position. They asked me what I was 'expecting' to be paid. I said I had come here with an open mind and asked them what their pay range was; they ignored me. They asked me what my previous salary had been. I told them, and again I asked them what they were paying. Apparently they thought they didn't need to answer any of my questions while expecting me to answer all of theirs. They told me to come for a second in-person interview, and I emailed them saying that I was withdrawing my application because they were refusing to answer any of my questions. They emailed me back saying they were rejecting my application (even though I'd already withdrawn it! lol) because my salary expectations were higher than the budget for the position. The audacity to email me that after refusing to tell me what the budget for the position was! Bald-faced liars, the lot of them. It is amusing that they said 'no we are rejecting your application, you're not withdrawing' because it reminds me of guys who get rejected and then insist that they are rejecting you actually, and they didn't want you anyway.

All of which to say that I've been silently fuming, so here I am verbally fuming instead. Which is an improvement.